Living In The Light

Living In The Lighthttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/en-EUhourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00Living In The Lighthttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/cb/1e521e37e9cc992bfb8fa6d4a3725a_160x200.jpghttp://kelz88.blogspot.com/http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/09/03/http-kelz88-blogspot-com-4676525/2008-09-03T14:21:10+02:00 <p><a href="http://kelz88.blogspot.com/">http://kelz88.blogspot.com/</a></p> <p>New posts on blogspot! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/09/03/http-kelz88-blogspot-com-4676525/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://kelz88.blogspot.com/

New posts on blogspot!

]]>Bought a new biblehttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/26/bought-a-new-bible-4640045/2008-08-26T17:07:18+02:00 <p>Yup that's right i bought a new bible today!!<br> It has a purple cover - you so know that's why i bought it! lol... <img src="/img/smilies/graybigrazz.gif" alt=":P" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>Andrew Kindly helped me choose it! - It being The NIV study bible. He was trying so hard to get me to buy it he convinced himself that he needed a bible too, that's definitely someone who believes in there arguments strongly! <img src="/img/smilies/graybigrazz.gif" alt=":P" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p>It was probally a good move to get a new one, since my youth bible is falling to peices, ive stuck so much stuff in it! lol.. actually has cellotape on it holding the cover together! :$ Sometimes i wonder what i do to it! and the fact that im still using the youth bible as my main bible at 20, was getting a bit extreme! but yeh so... NEW BIBLE!</p> <p>WOOP WOOP! Is it wierd im this excited over a bible! ? ! ? ! Well i should be excited about the bible, but not because its new! im now actually trhinking the more i think of my youth bible, im quite attached to it! been through alot with me! hehe. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/26/bought-a-new-bible-4640045/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Yup that's right i bought a new bible today!!
It has a purple cover - you so know that's why i bought it! lol...

Andrew Kindly helped me choose it! - It being The NIV study bible. He was trying so hard to get me to buy it he convinced himself that he needed a bible too, that's definitely someone who believes in there arguments strongly!

It was probally a good move to get a new one, since my youth bible is falling to peices, ive stuck so much stuff in it! lol.. actually has cellotape on it holding the cover together! :$ Sometimes i wonder what i do to it! and the fact that im still using the youth bible as my main bible at 20, was getting a bit extreme! but yeh so... NEW BIBLE!

WOOP WOOP! Is it wierd im this excited over a bible! ? ! ? ! Well i should be excited about the bible, but not because its new! im now actually trhinking the more i think of my youth bible, im quite attached to it! been through alot with me! hehe.

]]>Check out my other blog!!http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/26/check-out-my-other-blog-4640034/2008-08-26T17:05:53+02:00 <p><a href="http://kelz88.blogspot.com/">http://kelz88.blogspot.com/</a></p> <p>Going to start using that as my main one! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/26/check-out-my-other-blog-4640034/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://kelz88.blogspot.com/

Going to start using that as my main one!

]]>Sunday = Church + weekend banterhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/24/sunday-church-weekend-banter-4631614/2008-08-24T19:29:13+02:00 <p>Well today is Sunday so that means church, sermon was good, about God commitment to us, which was good, He never leaves us, even when we think he has. =)</p> <p>Erm it’s been a busy weekend Friday I was shopping all day to find a bag, for the wedding I was at yesterday – Congrats Pat and Stephen =) They were truly made for each other! =) </p> <p>Saturday I went down to the Granton Gala day, was alright sun was shining (Woo God thanks for that!) there was ice cream, and burgers mmmmm, Our church band were playing and singing which was good, they did well considering it was outside and they didn’t have electricity till just before it. </p> <p>At night was at the reception of Gemma’s mum and dad’s wedding, utter blast =)=)=) dancing and great banter hehe, loved it, even if I did have to wear a dress.<br> Okay, got to chapter 10 of Nehemiah which was good, still finding it hard to understand it… think might need to find out more about “how” to read my bible… any ideas guys?!</p> <p>Anyways off just now, be back later<br> xxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/24/sunday-church-weekend-banter-4631614/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well today is Sunday so that means church, sermon was good, about God commitment to us, which was good, He never leaves us, even when we think he has. =)

Erm it’s been a busy weekend Friday I was shopping all day to find a bag, for the wedding I was at yesterday – Congrats Pat and Stephen =) They were truly made for each other! =)

Saturday I went down to the Granton Gala day, was alright sun was shining (Woo God thanks for that!) there was ice cream, and burgers mmmmm, Our church band were playing and singing which was good, they did well considering it was outside and they didn’t have electricity till just before it.

At night was at the reception of Gemma’s mum and dad’s wedding, utter blast =)=)=) dancing and great banter hehe, loved it, even if I did have to wear a dress.
Okay, got to chapter 10 of Nehemiah which was good, still finding it hard to understand it… think might need to find out more about “how” to read my bible… any ideas guys?!

Anyways off just now, be back later
xxxx

]]>S-A-Ehttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/22/s-a-e-4622412/2008-08-22T12:36:02+02:00 <p>So yeh... was on S-A-E bebo <a href="http://www.bebo.com/-S-A-E-">http://www.bebo.com/-S-A-E-</a> last night, was some good banter, aswell as some good sharing of testomany etc, was good to hear other peoples stories about how they came to God and how he contuinues to work in thier lifes. =) God is awesome! (Note: If you haven't been on the bebo - Go On!)</p> <p>Well was praying alot yesterday, well praying alot for me anyway, proabaly not alot to other people. Was good to talk to God about stuff that was effecting me and other people.</p> <p>I started reading my way through Nehemiah last night only got up to chapter 5, so will talk about it more later hopefully. </p> <p>Off out with Pete to find him a tie for Gemma's mum and dads wedding tomoz. </p> <p>Ttyl<br> xx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/22/s-a-e-4622412/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>So yeh... was on S-A-E bebo http://www.bebo.com/-S-A-E- last night, was some good banter, aswell as some good sharing of testomany etc, was good to hear other peoples stories about how they came to God and how he contuinues to work in thier lifes. =) God is awesome! (Note: If you haven't been on the bebo - Go On!)

Well was praying alot yesterday, well praying alot for me anyway, proabaly not alot to other people. Was good to talk to God about stuff that was effecting me and other people.

I started reading my way through Nehemiah last night only got up to chapter 5, so will talk about it more later hopefully.

Off out with Pete to find him a tie for Gemma's mum and dads wedding tomoz.

Ttyl
xx

]]>Thursdayhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/21/thursday-4618337/2008-08-21T14:50:56+02:00 <p>Well today i have been working on magazine stuff... I really hit me how much prayer is important to it, I feel i get caught up so much in the end result (like i want it to relate to non Christians as well as Christians) that i forget to let God have his say... And in the end his say is most important. I cant expect the magazine to go anywhere without him, and in the end he is the best person to relate to non Christians and Christians, because you can see that in (Luke 7:36) how Jesus would go to dinner at religious leaders houses but also socialises with the sinful women. So God knows how to relate to both and if he is inspiring the articles in the magazine of course they will hit the people where they personally need it. </p> <p>I need to trust that God knows where the magazine is going and not stress over it (thats actually quite funny since we are doing a page on stress in this issue) Il take my own advice and go sing my heart out at a worship song (even though the neighbours will hate that - think they will all be at work though so thats fine)</p> <p>Shall probaly write later.<br> xx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/21/thursday-4618337/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well today i have been working on magazine stuff... I really hit me how much prayer is important to it, I feel i get caught up so much in the end result (like i want it to relate to non Christians as well as Christians) that i forget to let God have his say... And in the end his say is most important. I cant expect the magazine to go anywhere without him, and in the end he is the best person to relate to non Christians and Christians, because you can see that in (Luke 7:36) how Jesus would go to dinner at religious leaders houses but also socialises with the sinful women. So God knows how to relate to both and if he is inspiring the articles in the magazine of course they will hit the people where they personally need it.

I need to trust that God knows where the magazine is going and not stress over it (thats actually quite funny since we are doing a page on stress in this issue) Il take my own advice and go sing my heart out at a worship song (even though the neighbours will hate that - think they will all be at work though so thats fine)

Shall probaly write later.
xx

]]>Haven't written in ages....http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/20/haven-t-written-in-ages-4615905/2008-08-20T23:49:43+02:00 <p>Okay guys... how are you all?</p> <p>I haven't written in ages, apologies for that, have been really busy with magazine stuff, and worrying about the future... </p> <p>I have decided to go back to uni instead of placement this year, mainly because the placment that francley i think i would have got, was shift work and six days a week, and it would mean if I took it i'd miss church, [PUSH]+ and CU aswell as having no life. I know its selfish, but i have also really come to the conclusion that i don't want to do business as a career... I know God has me doing business for some reason, but im not sure if it is a grounding for somthing completely diffrent, God is strange that way... but hey that makes life an adventure and thats fun!!</p> <p>I think i have somewhat grown up abit in the last month, i was so self obsessed about the whole age thing i think i missed the actual point that il mature when God thinks as a person im ready for that... and now i had to take responisbility and decided uni or not it gave me that oppertunity to CHOOSE what i had to do rather than plod along. </p> <p>On another point i really need a christian outwith church to talk to about God stuff, I tink when i get to know people at church, i care to much what they think to be truely accountable about things, which could be an issue... so think some prayer will be good about that.</p> <p>At church on Sunday Ian did a sermon on the prodigal son, which was good reminds us that God never lets go of his love for us... ok i dont think that was the point he was making but i take strange things out of sermons for some reason. </p> <p>Schools were back today = haha all you young people i still have a month off. Wonder what productive thing i can do with the four weeks, I know FIND A JOB!!!!! lol. </p> <p>Ok il off just now,<br> Talk laters<br> Kel xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/08/20/haven-t-written-in-ages-4615905/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Okay guys... how are you all?

I haven't written in ages, apologies for that, have been really busy with magazine stuff, and worrying about the future...

I have decided to go back to uni instead of placement this year, mainly because the placment that francley i think i would have got, was shift work and six days a week, and it would mean if I took it i'd miss church, [PUSH]+ and CU aswell as having no life. I know its selfish, but i have also really come to the conclusion that i don't want to do business as a career... I know God has me doing business for some reason, but im not sure if it is a grounding for somthing completely diffrent, God is strange that way... but hey that makes life an adventure and thats fun!!

I think i have somewhat grown up abit in the last month, i was so self obsessed about the whole age thing i think i missed the actual point that il mature when God thinks as a person im ready for that... and now i had to take responisbility and decided uni or not it gave me that oppertunity to CHOOSE what i had to do rather than plod along.

On another point i really need a christian outwith church to talk to about God stuff, I tink when i get to know people at church, i care to much what they think to be truely accountable about things, which could be an issue... so think some prayer will be good about that.

At church on Sunday Ian did a sermon on the prodigal son, which was good reminds us that God never lets go of his love for us... ok i dont think that was the point he was making but i take strange things out of sermons for some reason.

Schools were back today = haha all you young people i still have a month off. Wonder what productive thing i can do with the four weeks, I know FIND A JOB!!!!! lol.

Ok il off just now,
Talk laters
Kel xxx

]]>This weekhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/26/this-week-4502055/2008-07-26T15:19:36+02:00 <p>Okay on Monday, I blogged about Sunday’s sermon and what I wanted to do this week:</p> <p>1. Be aware of sinning, and when I’m about to sin and stop it!<br> 2. Be aware of the things I see as little sins – because all sins are equal in Gods eyes!!<br> 3. Pray about it all more! In fact Pray more in general.</p> <p>The outcome:</p> <p>1. I am a little more aware of my sinning, but I think I need to read the bible more so I am aware what is classified as a sin.<br> 2. As above, but I think I wasn’t as aware as I would have liked to be of the “little sins”<br> 3. Praying more… nearer the end of the week I have been praying more, but that was actually after Andrew asked if I had done these things I suddenly thought oh no I haven’t prayed more.</p> <p>This week I have been really worrying about finding a placement, and as Anne said am I being persistent in prayer about it, and asking God to really help… which I’m not sure I was doing enough so that’s what I have been doing in the latter of the week, but I have to learn to be patient as God will provide in His time. I find that hard sometimes, esp when it involves me being out of my confort zone – example – the standing on stage thing! But now I have to have faith to know that God will provide, and in time! So that is my prayer for today:</p> <p>Father you are an amazing father, with impeccable timing, </p> <p>I know I don’t have to worry that you will provide. If I am persistent in prayer you will provide what I need at this time. And so I ask you for patience to wait for when you think the time is right to help me and that your will will be done in this placement situation. I know I’m an impatient person who finds it hard to wait on your timing and I worry about it, but you tell me not to worry as I can give all my anxieties to you so I give you those and I wait as patiently as I can for your input in this situation. </p> <p>In Jesus’ name.<br> Amen</p> <p>Right I’m off to do some magazine stuff… Talk to you guys later.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/26/this-week-4502055/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Okay on Monday, I blogged about Sunday’s sermon and what I wanted to do this week:

1. Be aware of sinning, and when I’m about to sin and stop it!
2. Be aware of the things I see as little sins – because all sins are equal in Gods eyes!!
3. Pray about it all more! In fact Pray more in general.

The outcome:

1. I am a little more aware of my sinning, but I think I need to read the bible more so I am aware what is classified as a sin.
2. As above, but I think I wasn’t as aware as I would have liked to be of the “little sins”
3. Praying more… nearer the end of the week I have been praying more, but that was actually after Andrew asked if I had done these things I suddenly thought oh no I haven’t prayed more.

This week I have been really worrying about finding a placement, and as Anne said am I being persistent in prayer about it, and asking God to really help… which I’m not sure I was doing enough so that’s what I have been doing in the latter of the week, but I have to learn to be patient as God will provide in His time. I find that hard sometimes, esp when it involves me being out of my confort zone – example – the standing on stage thing! But now I have to have faith to know that God will provide, and in time! So that is my prayer for today:

Father you are an amazing father, with impeccable timing,

I know I don’t have to worry that you will provide. If I am persistent in prayer you will provide what I need at this time. And so I ask you for patience to wait for when you think the time is right to help me and that your will will be done in this placement situation. I know I’m an impatient person who finds it hard to wait on your timing and I worry about it, but you tell me not to worry as I can give all my anxieties to you so I give you those and I wait as patiently as I can for your input in this situation.

In Jesus’ name.
Amen

Right I’m off to do some magazine stuff… Talk to you guys later.

]]>Sunday = churchhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/21/sunday-church-4477635/2008-07-21T10:53:33+02:00 <p>Well its Monday now, but here’s yesterdays blog kind of thing,<br> Sunday = Church. Here is the order:</p> <p>Welcome<br> Reading:- Psalm 103<br> Come Now Is The Time To Worship<br> Prayer<br> Who Is Like You (1621)<br> Notices/Offering:- He Is The Lord (755)<br> Prayer<br> I Will Come (1371)<br> To God Be The Glory (559)<br> Reading:- John 2:12-25<br> Jesus Be The Centre (1377)<br> Sermon<br> From The Squalor (1239)<br> Benediction.</p> <p>It was a really good service. I wasn’t really in the best attitude, I’m still finding it really hard to feel God in my life, and I know if we all listened to feelings the world would be much worse place than it already is,… and that the commitment I have with Jesus isn’t all about feelings.. At times like this I have to remember that God never gives up on me. </p> <p>I feel quite bad because I really wasn’t paying much attention in church, for many reasons and I just feel it was my worship to Jesus – and what did I do, play with an arrobas cube and laugh, not so good. If living for Jesus is being an ambassador for him, I think I well and truly failed in my task yesterday, any non-Christians in the church wouldn’t have known I had Jesus in my life. </p> <p>Ian talked about sinning in his sermon, and about how much we sin. I know I sin A LOT! And I just feel I really do need to start thinking more about what I’m doing. That is my plan for the week, to do these things:<br> • Be aware of sinning, and when I’m about to sin and stop it.<br> • Be aware of the things I see as little sins – because all sins are equal in Gods eyes!!<br> • Pray about it all more! In fact Pray more in general.</p> <p>Ian also talked about the feelings of God and that we can bring Him joy but also make him really angry! I want to bring Him Joy in the things that I do!!! Memo to self: Do stuff to bring Joy to God!!! </p> <p>Okay that’s all for just now… Out today to cinema and then have a meeting with a guy about a thing…</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/21/sunday-church-4477635/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well its Monday now, but here’s yesterdays blog kind of thing,
Sunday = Church. Here is the order:

Welcome
Reading:- Psalm 103
Come Now Is The Time To Worship
Prayer
Who Is Like You (1621)
Notices/Offering:- He Is The Lord (755)
Prayer
I Will Come (1371)
To God Be The Glory (559)
Reading:- John 2:12-25
Jesus Be The Centre (1377)
Sermon
From The Squalor (1239)
Benediction.

It was a really good service. I wasn’t really in the best attitude, I’m still finding it really hard to feel God in my life, and I know if we all listened to feelings the world would be much worse place than it already is,… and that the commitment I have with Jesus isn’t all about feelings.. At times like this I have to remember that God never gives up on me.

I feel quite bad because I really wasn’t paying much attention in church, for many reasons and I just feel it was my worship to Jesus – and what did I do, play with an arrobas cube and laugh, not so good. If living for Jesus is being an ambassador for him, I think I well and truly failed in my task yesterday, any non-Christians in the church wouldn’t have known I had Jesus in my life.

Ian talked about sinning in his sermon, and about how much we sin. I know I sin A LOT! And I just feel I really do need to start thinking more about what I’m doing. That is my plan for the week, to do these things:
• Be aware of sinning, and when I’m about to sin and stop it.
• Be aware of the things I see as little sins – because all sins are equal in Gods eyes!!
• Pray about it all more! In fact Pray more in general.

Ian also talked about the feelings of God and that we can bring Him joy but also make him really angry! I want to bring Him Joy in the things that I do!!! Memo to self: Do stuff to bring Joy to God!!!

Okay that’s all for just now… Out today to cinema and then have a meeting with a guy about a thing…

]]>Sunday = Churchhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/13/sunday-church-4442496/2008-07-13T16:47:50+02:00 <p><strong><em>Okay so church this morning… Garry was leading which was nice. Order was:</em></strong></p> <p><strong>We come in Your name </strong><br> - “We have been saved by faith into your glorious name, and this is a gift of God, freely given us.”<br> -<br> This song really made me think about how important it is to have faith, and that God really did such an important thing for us.<br> <strong><br> Jesus, name above all names </strong><br> - “Morning star, rising sun, lily of the valleys Rose of Sharon, Son of God Lifted up, glorified, praised through all the ages The first and last, beginning and end”<br> Our God really is the first and the last, and we are such a small part of it all when you think about it, but he did such a great thing even thought we are just this little part of His big world. </p> <p><strong>Spirit of the living God </strong>- “Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me;”</p> <p>I think I could do with being filled anew that’s good that God continues to fill us anew, when we need it.</p> <p><strong>Offering: In Christ alone</strong><br> - “In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light my strength my song.” </p> <p>Jesus is where my hope is found, and I really think He has shown me light in the darker times and feelings I have been feeling lately.</p> <p><strong>Sermon</strong><br> The Sermon was on friendship, and how Jesus is the closest friend you could have. Garry told us about the qualities a friend should have and that Jesus had them, and the mutual connection that friends have. Jesus was friends with his disciples even though they denied him and fell asleep when they should have been praying. That’s good friendship it would have been so easy for Him to think you’ze suck as friends il get new ones but he didn’t.</p> <p><strong>What love is this </strong><br> - “What love is this that took my place instead of wrath; you poured your grace on me. What can I do but simply come and worship you? I surrender, I surrender, I surrender all to you”</p> <p>I have recently been trying to really surrender my whole life to God and I think this song really helped me to realise what can I do in light of what he’s done – I simply have to worship this amazing God for all he has done.</p> <p><strong>I thank You for the cross </strong>- “I thank you for the cross where all my shame was laid, broken by your power banished to the grave”</p> <p>Self explanatory there I think.<br> <strong><br> Communion</strong><br> Was a nice time to remember what Jesus did for us on the cross; dying for us and all the wrong things we do. I like communion, it’s quite symbolic to the fact that Jesus body was broken on the cross and that his blood was poured for our sins.</p> <p><strong>What a friend we have in Jesus </strong><br> - “What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear! What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer! O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear, all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.”</p> <p>Reminded me that Jesus is this amazing friend that I can go to with my problems and that he’ll help me.</p> <p><strong><em>It was a really nice service and actually was just what I needed I think, in terms of church anyway. </em></strong></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/13/sunday-church-4442496/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Okay so church this morning… Garry was leading which was nice. Order was:

We come in Your name
- “We have been saved by faith into your glorious name, and this is a gift of God, freely given us.”
-
This song really made me think about how important it is to have faith, and that God really did such an important thing for us.

Jesus, name above all names
- “Morning star, rising sun, lily of the valleys Rose of Sharon, Son of God Lifted up, glorified, praised through all the ages The first and last, beginning and end”
Our God really is the first and the last, and we are such a small part of it all when you think about it, but he did such a great thing even thought we are just this little part of His big world.

Spirit of the living God - “Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me;”

I think I could do with being filled anew that’s good that God continues to fill us anew, when we need it.

Offering: In Christ alone
- “In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light my strength my song.”

Jesus is where my hope is found, and I really think He has shown me light in the darker times and feelings I have been feeling lately.

Sermon
The Sermon was on friendship, and how Jesus is the closest friend you could have. Garry told us about the qualities a friend should have and that Jesus had them, and the mutual connection that friends have. Jesus was friends with his disciples even though they denied him and fell asleep when they should have been praying. That’s good friendship it would have been so easy for Him to think you’ze suck as friends il get new ones but he didn’t.

What love is this
- “What love is this that took my place instead of wrath; you poured your grace on me. What can I do but simply come and worship you? I surrender, I surrender, I surrender all to you”

I have recently been trying to really surrender my whole life to God and I think this song really helped me to realise what can I do in light of what he’s done – I simply have to worship this amazing God for all he has done.

I thank You for the cross - “I thank you for the cross where all my shame was laid, broken by your power banished to the grave”

Self explanatory there I think.

Communion
Was a nice time to remember what Jesus did for us on the cross; dying for us and all the wrong things we do. I like communion, it’s quite symbolic to the fact that Jesus body was broken on the cross and that his blood was poured for our sins.

What a friend we have in Jesus
- “What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear! What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer! O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear, all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.”

Reminded me that Jesus is this amazing friend that I can go to with my problems and that he’ll help me.

It was a really nice service and actually was just what I needed I think, in terms of church anyway.

]]>Back to Godhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/12/back-to-god-4439186/2008-07-12T18:43:52+02:00 <p>Well today I have quite a quiet day, listened to some podcasts, and spent time with God for a change, and as much as I feel I don’t have time to do it, when I actually get into it, it is really enjoyable. I had a kind of mixed time, where I listened to some music to reflect, read a passage online which had pointers to look at and then I listened to a podcast. </p> <p>The passage I read was following on from yesterdays, about God moulding us like clay, He is the potter, about how if we rebel away from God he’d have to squash us and start again… which I find it hard to grasp, Might need more though and to re-read the passage.</p> <p>The podcast was about dating and relationships, which actually was a lot about what I already knew, but was good to hear examples. Also listened to the word4u2day, which was a good little minute to think about things that give us and instant fix like drugs or sex, and that these usually aren’t for the greater good in the long run so we should avoid them – Makes sense! </p> <p>I know my quiet time (time with God) should really be more focused, or I feel mines need to be, this mix was good, but wasn’t really a nitty-gritty thought provoking time with God. So maybe it is good to plan quiet times first. I am on the lookout for a good devotional, if any of you know of any good ones. I’d like one that would challenge me as a 20 something. </p> <p>The mix today was nice though and I feel a good way to start back into really finding time to spend with God. So yeh, that’s all for just now… </p> <p><strong>Church tomorrow <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/12/back-to-god-4439186/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well today I have quite a quiet day, listened to some podcasts, and spent time with God for a change, and as much as I feel I don’t have time to do it, when I actually get into it, it is really enjoyable. I had a kind of mixed time, where I listened to some music to reflect, read a passage online which had pointers to look at and then I listened to a podcast.

The passage I read was following on from yesterdays, about God moulding us like clay, He is the potter, about how if we rebel away from God he’d have to squash us and start again… which I find it hard to grasp, Might need more though and to re-read the passage.

The podcast was about dating and relationships, which actually was a lot about what I already knew, but was good to hear examples. Also listened to the word4u2day, which was a good little minute to think about things that give us and instant fix like drugs or sex, and that these usually aren’t for the greater good in the long run so we should avoid them – Makes sense!

I know my quiet time (time with God) should really be more focused, or I feel mines need to be, this mix was good, but wasn’t really a nitty-gritty thought provoking time with God. So maybe it is good to plan quiet times first. I am on the lookout for a good devotional, if any of you know of any good ones. I’d like one that would challenge me as a 20 something.

The mix today was nice though and I feel a good way to start back into really finding time to spend with God. So yeh, that’s all for just now…

Church tomorrow

]]>Lord Reign In Mehttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/11/lord-reign-in-me-4435095/2008-07-11T16:51:49+02:00 <p>If ive noticed anything from my many previous blogs, is that i am struggling to let God reign fully in my life, and today i was listening to the song Lord reign in me, and i really have decided however hard it is going to be, God has to have control... over me, me growing older, my feelings, uni, placement, relationships, it all.. He deserves to be in control of it all. so hopefully i can try and let Him in. </p> <p>Maturing is somthing everyone will do when they are ready and God will be the best person i can have on my side to do it! He is my God and He knows me better than i know myself, so He can help me through this, I know this post is rather pointless but, i felt the need to post it so hey! </p> <p>Over all the earth<br> You reign on high<br> Every mountain stream<br> Every sunset sky<br> But my one request<br> Lord my only aim<br> Is that You’d reign in me again </p> <p>Lord reign in me<br> Reign in Your power<br> Over all my dreams<br> In my darkest hour<br> You are the Lord<br> Of all I am<br> So won’t You reign in me again </p> <p>Over every thought<br> Over every word<br> May my life reflect<br> The beauty of my Lord<br> ‘Cause you mean more to me<br> Than any earthly thing<br> So won’t You reign in me again</p> <p><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/276/2653276_013a7981a7_s.jpg" alt="pray" vspace="5" hspace="5"></p> <p><strong>Lord you’re the most amazing God, your reign over every part of the earth, from every mountain stream to every cloud and sunset in the sky. Lord I ask that you come in reign in me again. </p> <p>Lord, reign in your mighty power, over all of me, my dreams and my daily tasks, even when I feel so far away, please continue to reign, when mu life is so dark I can’t see a way out, please still have control. You are my Lord and my protector so please reign in my life once more.</p> <p>Over all my thoughts, Lord please reign, may all my thoughts and words really reflect what you have done in my life, the big and the small. May my life really reflect the great beauty of you my amazing Lord. You mean so much to me, so much more than any earthy possession so I ask lord that you reign in me forever.<br> In Jesus Name<br> Amen.</strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/11/lord-reign-in-me-4435095/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>If ive noticed anything from my many previous blogs, is that i am struggling to let God reign fully in my life, and today i was listening to the song Lord reign in me, and i really have decided however hard it is going to be, God has to have control... over me, me growing older, my feelings, uni, placement, relationships, it all.. He deserves to be in control of it all. so hopefully i can try and let Him in.

Maturing is somthing everyone will do when they are ready and God will be the best person i can have on my side to do it! He is my God and He knows me better than i know myself, so He can help me through this, I know this post is rather pointless but, i felt the need to post it so hey!

Over all the earth
You reign on high
Every mountain stream
Every sunset sky
But my one request
Lord my only aim
Is that You’d reign in me again

Lord reign in me
Reign in Your power
Over all my dreams
In my darkest hour
You are the Lord
Of all I am
So won’t You reign in me again

Over every thought
Over every word
May my life reflect
The beauty of my Lord
‘Cause you mean more to me
Than any earthly thing
So won’t You reign in me again

pray

Lord you’re the most amazing God, your reign over every part of the earth, from every mountain stream to every cloud and sunset in the sky. Lord I ask that you come in reign in me again.

Lord, reign in your mighty power, over all of me, my dreams and my daily tasks, even when I feel so far away, please continue to reign, when mu life is so dark I can’t see a way out, please still have control. You are my Lord and my protector so please reign in my life once more.

Over all my thoughts, Lord please reign, may all my thoughts and words really reflect what you have done in my life, the big and the small. May my life really reflect the great beauty of you my amazing Lord. You mean so much to me, so much more than any earthy possession so I ask lord that you reign in me forever.
In Jesus Name
Amen.

]]>More on Maturing...http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/10/more-4431766/2008-07-10T22:05:19+02:00 <p>Do you know at one point in the meeting yesterday i actually felt so alone, in theory it was after the meeting that kinda time that people talk to there friends, and i actually stood on my own... and i stand on my own alot so im not saying that in an attention seeking way... i mean i was in a room full of people and i attually felt so alone. I dont think i have really felt that since school or maybe when i first went to college... so why did i end up feeling like that in a church in my church?!?</p> <p>Am i being mellow dramatic... will someone tell me?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/10/more-4431766/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Do you know at one point in the meeting yesterday i actually felt so alone, in theory it was after the meeting that kinda time that people talk to there friends, and i actually stood on my own... and i stand on my own alot so im not saying that in an attention seeking way... i mean i was in a room full of people and i attually felt so alone. I dont think i have really felt that since school or maybe when i first went to college... so why did i end up feeling like that in a church in my church?!?

Am i being mellow dramatic... will someone tell me?

]]>Maturing continued....http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/10/maturing-continued-4428919/2008-07-10T11:14:35+02:00 <p><strong>Okay so had that meeting last night, I think that has possibly made it more clear to me in in an utter limbo stage, At one point i was treated like and adult and then as a youth, how do they expect me to mature if they keep me in this limbo stage. I know it probally wasnt meant the way i took it, it never is, is it. Its like there was two 20 year olds there... One was treated as an adult throughout and the me, I was an "older yfer" or a "push+er" HELLO Im actually a person or hadent they noticed, and one point in the meeting i probally could have left the room and no one would have noticed, i not saying that as a big headed person that part of the meeting was ment to be about the 20 somethings, like me the 5 miniuite slot at the end, and still people talked about more pressing issues such as particion walls and offerings, thats annoying. </p> <p>I guess i am just going to take responsibility for me and figure a way i can mature with out the help of the church, is this really what they want thier youth to be thinking... that where do i fit? I dont think i actually fit anywhere in church or in my church? I know there will be somewhere God has plans for me to work in and being part of my church in someway is one of them... but WHERE?!?! and why do i feel so alone in my desicion making on the matter?!?<br> <u><br> Any Comments....</u></strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/10/maturing-continued-4428919/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Okay so had that meeting last night, I think that has possibly made it more clear to me in in an utter limbo stage, At one point i was treated like and adult and then as a youth, how do they expect me to mature if they keep me in this limbo stage. I know it probally wasnt meant the way i took it, it never is, is it. Its like there was two 20 year olds there... One was treated as an adult throughout and the me, I was an "older yfer" or a "push+er" HELLO Im actually a person or hadent they noticed, and one point in the meeting i probally could have left the room and no one would have noticed, i not saying that as a big headed person that part of the meeting was ment to be about the 20 somethings, like me the 5 miniuite slot at the end, and still people talked about more pressing issues such as particion walls and offerings, thats annoying.

I guess i am just going to take responsibility for me and figure a way i can mature with out the help of the church, is this really what they want thier youth to be thinking... that where do i fit? I dont think i actually fit anywhere in church or in my church? I know there will be somewhere God has plans for me to work in and being part of my church in someway is one of them... but WHERE?!?! and why do i feel so alone in my desicion making on the matter?!?

Any Comments....

]]>Maturing, More thoughts...http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/09/mauring-more-thoughts-4425850/2008-07-09T18:25:50+02:00 <p>I've been thinking more about maturing today, and after talking to someone who is actually i think having similar feelings on the matter... i have come to a different set of aspects on the issue, I know in theory other peoples decisions shouldn't effect my decision. But in terms of practical solutions to current issues of people around me, i will have to reconsider what i was originally thinking, if that is what best suits me well more importantly God. </p> <p>I feel over the next few weeks i really am going to have to find out what God wants me to do, and listen to Him rather than hear what i want to hear... I do sometimes find it hard to give Him full control of all aspects of my life and i certainly have noticed this is one of those areas i struggle to hand over completely... He has some control, but its quite clear not all of it, He really does need to be in the driving seat... I guess its up to me to move over and let Him take over, that's a hard task. </p> <p>Do you know i have been described as stubborn at least twice today, that surely says something about my personality especially when it come to letting God take control in situations where the outcome is uncertain....</p> <p><strong><u>Where now...</u></strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/09/mauring-more-thoughts-4425850/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I've been thinking more about maturing today, and after talking to someone who is actually i think having similar feelings on the matter... i have come to a different set of aspects on the issue, I know in theory other peoples decisions shouldn't effect my decision. But in terms of practical solutions to current issues of people around me, i will have to reconsider what i was originally thinking, if that is what best suits me well more importantly God.

I feel over the next few weeks i really am going to have to find out what God wants me to do, and listen to Him rather than hear what i want to hear... I do sometimes find it hard to give Him full control of all aspects of my life and i certainly have noticed this is one of those areas i struggle to hand over completely... He has some control, but its quite clear not all of it, He really does need to be in the driving seat... I guess its up to me to move over and let Him take over, that's a hard task.

Do you know i have been described as stubborn at least twice today, that surely says something about my personality especially when it come to letting God take control in situations where the outcome is uncertain....

Where now...

]]>Sunday = Churchhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/06/sunday-church-4410183/2008-07-06T12:50:15+02:00 <p><strong>Well was at church this morning, and there was like no-one overly my age, well when i turned up, I did say to Andrew last night that if i cant sit on my own in my church where can i sit on my own, but as it turns out i just really didnt feel like sitting on my own, so decided to grace under 8s with my presence again. Im not sure if that was a benefit to them at all lol... but there was jucie and crisps. I believe i missed a good sermon by Garry which is a bit gutting but owell, asalt courses it was!!!! </p> <p>One kid managed it in 20 secs - I find that really amazing i would have been lucky to get past the hoops in that time. Anyway that isnt the point, will defiently have to sit in service next week, I really do need to spend more time with God if i want to grow more. </p> <p>I need to remember i have the youthwork meeting on Wednesday! Someone remind me! Anyways im off just now cause im meeting Gemma and Megan at 1.30 and want to eat somehting before i meet them. - Hmm better think about that page aswell.</p> <p>I'll leave with the comment - I<u> don't want to just attend a church i want to contribute, but where do I fit?</u></strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/06/sunday-church-4410183/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well was at church this morning, and there was like no-one overly my age, well when i turned up, I did say to Andrew last night that if i cant sit on my own in my church where can i sit on my own, but as it turns out i just really didnt feel like sitting on my own, so decided to grace under 8s with my presence again. Im not sure if that was a benefit to them at all lol... but there was jucie and crisps. I believe i missed a good sermon by Garry which is a bit gutting but owell, asalt courses it was!!!!

One kid managed it in 20 secs - I find that really amazing i would have been lucky to get past the hoops in that time. Anyway that isnt the point, will defiently have to sit in service next week, I really do need to spend more time with God if i want to grow more.

I need to remember i have the youthwork meeting on Wednesday! Someone remind me! Anyways im off just now cause im meeting Gemma and Megan at 1.30 and want to eat somehting before i meet them. - Hmm better think about that page aswell.

I'll leave with the comment - I don't want to just attend a church i want to contribute, but where do I fit?

]]>Maturing?!?!http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/05/maturing-4407479/2008-07-05T16:21:51+02:00 <p><strong>I’m having one of those days, the ones where you feel sort of sorry for yourself with no good reason. I love being a Christian don’t get me wrong, but It’s so hard when you think that in relationships you have to stay strong in the “What God wants thing” I don’t mean in a sex sense, just the general not living together thing, as well as a lot of little things. I wouldn’t change the person God has made me so I could fit in to society.. I just wish it was easier, now come on I go out with a Christian guy so I shouldn’t find it any harder than he is… but our different views on the marriage thing are an underlying issue. I know I’m too young to get married, mentally probably more than physically, in theory its legal to get married in Scotland at 16, and I’m 20… so 4 years into the legal sphere of being allowed to get married, I should be somewhat ready. </p> <p>I’m probably just feeling sorry for myself as a lot of school friends are settling down with their families, not so much getting married but living on their own. Even friends that have gone away to uni are more independent than me. My mum hasn’t ever stopped me doing anything and somewhat as a teenager I could do a lot more than my friends but now it feels they have just skipped past me. I’m probally being mellow dramatic in my self-centeredness of a day, but its how I feel. </p> <p>I decided a few weeks ago that I was leaving YF at church, because I really do feel to old for it, and more in respect to the other “youth” there, it makes it a lot easier for leaders to plan (or I feel it will). I’m kind of lost in where I should be in the church now, should I be thinking of where I fit into the church as a whole now? What do you all think? In fairness I had been thinking of leaving YF all year so I was in my mind ready for leaving but I didn’t really think of where now? I still have [PUSH]+ but in theory for how long? I love spending time with my friends from church even if the majority are 5 years younger than me, I know age isn’t an issue, but at this time when I should be maturing what is the ideal age group I should be with… I know there isn’t one, and I’ll mature at my own rate, but am I being giving an opportunity to mature?</p> <p><u><br> Comments please…</u> </strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/05/maturing-4407479/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I’m having one of those days, the ones where you feel sort of sorry for yourself with no good reason. I love being a Christian don’t get me wrong, but It’s so hard when you think that in relationships you have to stay strong in the “What God wants thing” I don’t mean in a sex sense, just the general not living together thing, as well as a lot of little things. I wouldn’t change the person God has made me so I could fit in to society.. I just wish it was easier, now come on I go out with a Christian guy so I shouldn’t find it any harder than he is… but our different views on the marriage thing are an underlying issue. I know I’m too young to get married, mentally probably more than physically, in theory its legal to get married in Scotland at 16, and I’m 20… so 4 years into the legal sphere of being allowed to get married, I should be somewhat ready.

I’m probably just feeling sorry for myself as a lot of school friends are settling down with their families, not so much getting married but living on their own. Even friends that have gone away to uni are more independent than me. My mum hasn’t ever stopped me doing anything and somewhat as a teenager I could do a lot more than my friends but now it feels they have just skipped past me. I’m probally being mellow dramatic in my self-centeredness of a day, but its how I feel.

I decided a few weeks ago that I was leaving YF at church, because I really do feel to old for it, and more in respect to the other “youth” there, it makes it a lot easier for leaders to plan (or I feel it will). I’m kind of lost in where I should be in the church now, should I be thinking of where I fit into the church as a whole now? What do you all think? In fairness I had been thinking of leaving YF all year so I was in my mind ready for leaving but I didn’t really think of where now? I still have [PUSH]+ but in theory for how long? I love spending time with my friends from church even if the majority are 5 years younger than me, I know age isn’t an issue, but at this time when I should be maturing what is the ideal age group I should be with… I know there isn’t one, and I’ll mature at my own rate, but am I being giving an opportunity to mature?

Comments please…

]]>Sex? How far is to far for a Christian?http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/02/sex-how-far-is-to-far-for-a-christian-4395547/2008-07-02T21:14:56+02:00 <p><strong>Recently I have been wondering about the boundaries surrounding Christians and sex. As a Christian 20 year old, in a long term relationship, I often wonder how far is too far? And it occurred to me whilst talking to Christian friends about this, that really the church as a whole isn’t giving much teaching on the matter. </p> <p>I’m not saying that it should in anyway be a big issue! But maybe a bit more of a concern in this day and age, how are Christians meant to know how far is too far? If they haven’t been told or informed. I am aware that the bible says a lot about sex before marriage but what about doing other things? What can you do?</p> <p>In my search for answers I picked up a book on the matter of someone’s bookshelf, it was very negative towards sex before marriage, which I myself do belief is wrong, but it was also very negative towards other sexual stuff even within marriage, I would have thought that so called other stuff would be fine within marriage if not out with the confines’ of marriage. In fairness this is just my thoughts on the matter and I don’t expect people to agree with me, I currently am unsure where I stand on this matter, and would hope find out more in the near future if I could find somewhere to find out about it.</p> <p>Any Thoughts on this matter? </strong> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/07/02/sex-how-far-is-to-far-for-a-christian-4395547/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Recently I have been wondering about the boundaries surrounding Christians and sex. As a Christian 20 year old, in a long term relationship, I often wonder how far is too far? And it occurred to me whilst talking to Christian friends about this, that really the church as a whole isn’t giving much teaching on the matter.

I’m not saying that it should in anyway be a big issue! But maybe a bit more of a concern in this day and age, how are Christians meant to know how far is too far? If they haven’t been told or informed. I am aware that the bible says a lot about sex before marriage but what about doing other things? What can you do?

In my search for answers I picked up a book on the matter of someone’s bookshelf, it was very negative towards sex before marriage, which I myself do belief is wrong, but it was also very negative towards other sexual stuff even within marriage, I would have thought that so called other stuff would be fine within marriage if not out with the confines’ of marriage. In fairness this is just my thoughts on the matter and I don’t expect people to agree with me, I currently am unsure where I stand on this matter, and would hope find out more in the near future if I could find somewhere to find out about it.

Any Thoughts on this matter?

]]>Worrying about Placementhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/25/worrying-about-placement-4364492/2008-06-25T22:43:33+02:00 <p>So yeh.... its Wednesday, and ive really been worrying about finding a placement today =( so heres a prayer request for yas all....</p> <p>Prayer Request</p> <p>As you all probably know, as part of my degree i need to find a placement. I would really like your prayers on the matter because its nearing the end of the time to find one (August) and i still don't have one. As some of you might know, The Credit Crunch (the situation with the financial market and stuff in the UK) is effecting lots of banks as well as business and this means that less of them are taking on placement students this year (since they cant afford to), This is posing a problem for finding a placement, which is stressing me out a lot. </p> <p>I understand God is in control of my life and the placement situation, but it inst helping me very much with the stress of not having a placement yet. There is about another 15 people in the same boat at uni, so i guess prayer for them as well would be good, I'm sure they will be feeling similar feeling to me. </p> <p>So could you pray that I find a placement, and that those other guys find ones too, and for the placement women at uni that has to find placements that we can apply for, that must be quite stressful for her to. If you guys want to know more, ask me as this email is getting kind of long.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/25/worrying-about-placement-4364492/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>So yeh.... its Wednesday, and ive really been worrying about finding a placement today =( so heres a prayer request for yas all....

Prayer Request

As you all probably know, as part of my degree i need to find a placement. I would really like your prayers on the matter because its nearing the end of the time to find one (August) and i still don't have one. As some of you might know, The Credit Crunch (the situation with the financial market and stuff in the UK) is effecting lots of banks as well as business and this means that less of them are taking on placement students this year (since they cant afford to), This is posing a problem for finding a placement, which is stressing me out a lot.

I understand God is in control of my life and the placement situation, but it inst helping me very much with the stress of not having a placement yet. There is about another 15 people in the same boat at uni, so i guess prayer for them as well would be good, I'm sure they will be feeling similar feeling to me.

So could you pray that I find a placement, and that those other guys find ones too, and for the placement women at uni that has to find placements that we can apply for, that must be quite stressful for her to. If you guys want to know more, ask me as this email is getting kind of long.

]]>Life Latelyhttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/24/life-lately-4357595/2008-06-24T17:38:07+02:00 <p>Well life with God lately has been hard for some reason, I was on holiday to Portugal in June, which was fab and i really felt the creation of God in my surrondings espally the sea. </p> <p><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/796/2614796_0fb0e46285_s.jpg" alt="Sea" vspace="5" hspace="5"></p> <p>Sea</p> <p><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/797/2614797_64b82d3502_s.jpg" alt="sun" vspace="5" hspace="5"></p> <p>Sun</p> <p>After the holiday, I had Frenzy this big christian concert in Edinburgh which was fab, but somthing didnt overly feel right, normally im so passionate about it but this year i was kinda mellow and that got me down alot. I feel i need to spend more time with God but at the moment He keeps falling down my list, i know thats not right but its whats happening which is so annoying! Any advice? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/24/life-lately-4357595/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well life with God lately has been hard for some reason, I was on holiday to Portugal in June, which was fab and i really felt the creation of God in my surrondings espally the sea.

Sea

Sea

sun

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After the holiday, I had Frenzy this big christian concert in Edinburgh which was fab, but somthing didnt overly feel right, normally im so passionate about it but this year i was kinda mellow and that got me down alot. I feel i need to spend more time with God but at the moment He keeps falling down my list, i know thats not right but its whats happening which is so annoying! Any advice?

]]>Whats life all about for me?http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/24/whats-life-all-about-for-me-4357420/2008-06-24T16:59:18+02:00 <p>If you have read the blogs before this you'll know i stood on stage at church a couple of months ago, and i thought id pop on here what i said when i was up to see what you all think.... so here you'ze go</p> <p>“What is life all about…for me?”<br> What is life all about for me… </p> <p>Well currently my life is focused towards getting a degree so I can have a good career. I love to spend time with my friends and they are a big part of my life.</p> <p>I try my hardest to do what God wants to do, and yeh I muck up a lot, but that’s the great thing about God, that he doesn’t think “she mucked up, I won’t use her anymore…” he keeps giving me opportunities to live for him and do what He wants me to do. I’m not saying at all that His way is easy… God wants me to do a lot of things that challenge me and that I’m scared of, like standing on stage for instance… but he promises to be with me and the great things about God is that he doesn’t lie, it’s still hard and scary but I know he is right here with me. </p> <p>My life isn’t just mine it’s His. So…</p> <p>All the things I want my life to be about, have to be what he wants, cause in the end he knows what’s best for me… not to mention following God is the biggest, exciting scary, life changing one of a kind journey I’ll ever get to be part of.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/06/24/whats-life-all-about-for-me-4357420/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>If you have read the blogs before this you'll know i stood on stage at church a couple of months ago, and i thought id pop on here what i said when i was up to see what you all think.... so here you'ze go

“What is life all about…for me?”
What is life all about for me…

Well currently my life is focused towards getting a degree so I can have a good career. I love to spend time with my friends and they are a big part of my life.

I try my hardest to do what God wants to do, and yeh I muck up a lot, but that’s the great thing about God, that he doesn’t think “she mucked up, I won’t use her anymore…” he keeps giving me opportunities to live for him and do what He wants me to do. I’m not saying at all that His way is easy… God wants me to do a lot of things that challenge me and that I’m scared of, like standing on stage for instance… but he promises to be with me and the great things about God is that he doesn’t lie, it’s still hard and scary but I know he is right here with me.

My life isn’t just mine it’s His. So…

All the things I want my life to be about, have to be what he wants, cause in the end he knows what’s best for me… not to mention following God is the biggest, exciting scary, life changing one of a kind journey I’ll ever get to be part of.

]]>Fear... Did Ithttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/04/fear-did-it-4129447/2008-05-04T13:44:03+02:00 <p>Well just back from church, and yes i did do it! After alot of stressing before the service, i managed to pluck up the courage to do it! =)</p> <p>Quite pleased with myself if im honist, felt i really faced it but hey dont think i will be any easier next time. So for that purpuse i am writting on here:</p> <p>After Standing on stage to talk today at church:</p> <p>1 .Nothing Bad Happened<br> 2. People Did understand what i was saying<br> 3. The world didnt end<br> 4. 90people were there (according to andrew)<br> 5. It felt amazing after it!</p> <p>Thanks Everone for Prayer etc</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/04/fear-did-it-4129447/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Well just back from church, and yes i did do it! After alot of stressing before the service, i managed to pluck up the courage to do it! =)

Quite pleased with myself if im honist, felt i really faced it but hey dont think i will be any easier next time. So for that purpuse i am writting on here:

After Standing on stage to talk today at church:

1 .Nothing Bad Happened
2. People Did understand what i was saying
3. The world didnt end
4. 90people were there (according to andrew)
5. It felt amazing after it!

Thanks Everone for Prayer etc

]]>Fear contuinued...http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/03/fear-contuinued-4126104/2008-05-03T14:11:39+02:00 <p>Its the day before... D Day... and fear has well and truely set in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</p> <p><strong><u>HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!</u></strong></p> <p><br> <u><strong>Prayer please!!!!</strong></u> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/03/fear-contuinued-4126104/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Its the day before... D Day... and fear has well and truely set in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!

Prayer please!!!!

]]>Fear...http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/01/fear-4120744/2008-05-01T23:54:13+02:00 <p><span>Hey Guys!</p> <p>Long Time no speak, my fault been neglecting my blog of late... pile of uni work to be done, but now I’m utterly procrastinating....</p> <p>So yeh as the title states I’m going to rant about fear... I have to do this thing on Sunday where I stand on stage and answer a question... okay not sounding that scary! Until you realise I am petrified of public speaking and of standing in front of people... I have been since I can remember... well anyway... I felt God is telling me it time to face this fear, although that isn’t making it any easier... <strong><span>it’s says "fear not" 366 times in the bible</span></strong>, I read that in a book today that’s one fear not for each day of the year... </p> <p>I really just don’t know how to get over this fear, people at the church esp the person that asked me to do this says people want to hear what I have to say, I’m really disagreeing with that statement, I don’t see how people are going to get anything out of my stumbling mess of an answer to "What is life all about?" But hey I guess I’m going to have to let God be in control, however hard I think it is giving this certain issue over to him... which I guess might be the problem that I won’t give it all over to Him - maybe if I did id fine this whole process so much easier! What you guys think?</p> <p><strong><u>Well your prayers would be good</u></strong>.... esp for confidence on the day, and maybe about letting God have control of this situation, or whatever you'ze think.</p> <p>Thanks<br>xXx</p> <p>Comments Appreciated</span> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/05/01/fear-4120744/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Hey Guys!

Long Time no speak, my fault been neglecting my blog of late... pile of uni work to be done, but now I’m utterly procrastinating....

So yeh as the title states I’m going to rant about fear... I have to do this thing on Sunday where I stand on stage and answer a question... okay not sounding that scary! Until you realise I am petrified of public speaking and of standing in front of people... I have been since I can remember... well anyway... I felt God is telling me it time to face this fear, although that isn’t making it any easier... it’s says "fear not" 366 times in the bible, I read that in a book today that’s one fear not for each day of the year...

I really just don’t know how to get over this fear, people at the church esp the person that asked me to do this says people want to hear what I have to say, I’m really disagreeing with that statement, I don’t see how people are going to get anything out of my stumbling mess of an answer to "What is life all about?" But hey I guess I’m going to have to let God be in control, however hard I think it is giving this certain issue over to him... which I guess might be the problem that I won’t give it all over to Him - maybe if I did id fine this whole process so much easier! What you guys think?

Well your prayers would be good.... esp for confidence on the day, and maybe about letting God have control of this situation, or whatever you'ze think.

Thanks
xXx

Comments Appreciated

]]>Healing?http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/02/24/healing~3775573/2008-02-24T22:58:57+01:00 <p>Hello Guys! =)</p> <p>How is everyone! sorry for delay in new blog, have been busy with uni etc.</p> <p>Just a general update...</p> <p>Was thinking today about healing, and well i believe God heals its just i find it hard to believe it would happen to someone i actually knew, it like happens at other churches or on TV, but not like in my church or to people i know, and well i know this isnt true and God heals nomatter what church etc, and i know im just scared at the prospect of the whole thing, and well anyways i dont really know what i think... I'll need to read up on it and think about it more, get my head around it. </p> <p>Its hard being a christian at my age.... well a relativly new christian at my age! lol... still learning.</p> <p>anyway hope you are all well.</p> <p>Chat soon</p> <p>xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/02/24/healing~3775573/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Hello Guys! =)

How is everyone! sorry for delay in new blog, have been busy with uni etc.

Just a general update...

Was thinking today about healing, and well i believe God heals its just i find it hard to believe it would happen to someone i actually knew, it like happens at other churches or on TV, but not like in my church or to people i know, and well i know this isnt true and God heals nomatter what church etc, and i know im just scared at the prospect of the whole thing, and well anyways i dont really know what i think... I'll need to read up on it and think about it more, get my head around it.

Its hard being a christian at my age.... well a relativly new christian at my age! lol... still learning.

anyway hope you are all well.

Chat soon

xxx

]]>Leadershiphttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/14/title~3575893/2008-01-14T17:27:27+01:00 <p>Good Afternoon Guys!</p> <p>Today i have been reflecting on leadership, and how that effects my life, at church there is alot of leadership, the pastor, decons, youth leaders etc. and they all have an effect on me and my life with God. <br> Deuteronomy 1:1-18 <p>Well... think how hard they work and all the pressure that is on them, yet they help me to understand how God is leading me in my life. I really thank God everyday for the love these leaders show me in helping with my understanding. </p> <p>When Moses was leading the issralites out of slavery he had to delegate to wise people, and i feel in my church today this has been done really well.</p> <p>I know the improtance of this leadership in my understanding and help in life, God in Jesus is the example il follow. Earlier on today, i was feeling kind of "bummed out" Im going to be 20 in two weeks and i really don't want to grow up so fast, il be the first to tell you in not handiling this birthday well, all my friends from school have jobs, there own places, and are starting to settle down with partners and kids. I really feel left behind, so i really prayed to God about it today, and then had a wee look in the bible about it, and i feel that i have learnt alot about God and that his plans take time, and the infulence of leadership to help you get where He wants you. so okay, maybe im feeling left out, but in the end im not, i have the best thing ever, which is God leading me in the best possible route for my life so i shouldnt worry.</p> <p>This Blog is quite confusing lol... <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/14/title~3575893/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Good Afternoon Guys!

Today i have been reflecting on leadership, and how that effects my life, at church there is alot of leadership, the pastor, decons, youth leaders etc. and they all have an effect on me and my life with God.
Deuteronomy 1:1-18

Well... think how hard they work and all the pressure that is on them, yet they help me to understand how God is leading me in my life. I really thank God everyday for the love these leaders show me in helping with my understanding.

When Moses was leading the issralites out of slavery he had to delegate to wise people, and i feel in my church today this has been done really well.

I know the improtance of this leadership in my understanding and help in life, God in Jesus is the example il follow. Earlier on today, i was feeling kind of "bummed out" Im going to be 20 in two weeks and i really don't want to grow up so fast, il be the first to tell you in not handiling this birthday well, all my friends from school have jobs, there own places, and are starting to settle down with partners and kids. I really feel left behind, so i really prayed to God about it today, and then had a wee look in the bible about it, and i feel that i have learnt alot about God and that his plans take time, and the infulence of leadership to help you get where He wants you. so okay, maybe im feeling left out, but in the end im not, i have the best thing ever, which is God leading me in the best possible route for my life so i shouldnt worry.

This Blog is quite confusing lol...

]]>The Power of Therforehttp://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/12/the_power_of_therfore~3566537/2008-01-12T16:56:13+01:00 <p>I was at Powerpoint last night, for people who don't know what that is, its a youth worship event in Edinburgh. The talk was on the power of therefore, which we now know is a really improtant word in the bible.</p> <p>Because Jesus died for us, therefore how do we react? how should we react? what should we do in light of this? should we live diffently knowning that when we were still bad, God sent His son to die for our sin. would you die for a bad person? ... God sent His son to die for us and we are all bad people.</p> <p>The talk was on the passage Romans 5:1-11 if you want to have a wee look.</p> <p>What do you all think?</p> <p>WORSHIP WAS FAB</p> <p>Your voice is the voice that<br> Commanded the universe to be<br> Your voice is the voice that<br> Is speaking words of love to me<br> How can it be?</p> <p>Awesome God, Holy God<br> I worship You with wonder<br> Awesome God, Holy God<br> As You draw near I´m humbled<br> By Your majesty and the mystery<br> Of Your great love for me</p> <p>Your arms are, the arms that<br> Hung shining stars in deepest space<br> Your arms are, the arms that<br> Surround me in a warm embrace<br> Amazing grace </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/12/the_power_of_therfore~3566537/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I was at Powerpoint last night, for people who don't know what that is, its a youth worship event in Edinburgh. The talk was on the power of therefore, which we now know is a really improtant word in the bible.

Because Jesus died for us, therefore how do we react? how should we react? what should we do in light of this? should we live diffently knowning that when we were still bad, God sent His son to die for our sin. would you die for a bad person? ... God sent His son to die for us and we are all bad people.

The talk was on the passage Romans 5:1-11 if you want to have a wee look.

What do you all think?

WORSHIP WAS FAB

Your voice is the voice that
Commanded the universe to be
Your voice is the voice that
Is speaking words of love to me
How can it be?

Awesome God, Holy God
I worship You with wonder
Awesome God, Holy God
As You draw near I´m humbled
By Your majesty and the mystery
Of Your great love for me

Your arms are, the arms that
Hung shining stars in deepest space
Your arms are, the arms that
Surround me in a warm embrace
Amazing grace

]]>Start of 2008http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/12/start_of~3566391/2008-01-12T16:30:52+01:00 <p>Hello Guys!</p> <p>A Happy New Year to You All.</p> <p>I thought i would creat a new blog after a half heartyed attempt last year which ininvertally ended in my deleting the blog account.</p> <p>Well im hoping having this blog will help me put into words where i am with God each week, day or however often im on.</p> <p>In 2007 I got baptised and really did become closer to God, i learnt alot about relying on Him in the bad times as well as the Good. </p> <p>Well hopefully this will work... Welcome to my blog etc etc. I hope you enjoy.</p> <p>Love and Hugs<br>God Bless<br>Kel x </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://living-in-the-light.blog.co.uk/2008/01/12/start_of~3566391/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Hello Guys!

A Happy New Year to You All.

I thought i would creat a new blog after a half heartyed attempt last year which ininvertally ended in my deleting the blog account.

Well im hoping having this blog will help me put into words where i am with God each week, day or however often im on.

In 2007 I got baptised and really did become closer to God, i learnt alot about relying on Him in the bad times as well as the Good.

Well hopefully this will work... Welcome to my blog etc etc. I hope you enjoy.

Love and Hugs
God Bless
Kel x

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